May 9th 2019

Gay morning—the clouds dripped in an oasis of beauty—beatitudes are singing worship and Hosanna to their creator. I feel so contented about life since God, Jehovah Jesus is on my side.

I started reading the Book of Galatians. Paul’s language is very poetic. He speaks from the straight from the heart. He appeals to the heart of believers. The message of the scripture is clear: we have to be baptized with water, obey God’s command, and believe that Jesus Christ came to us to redeem us from our sins. God’s love will help to perfect our being in Christ.

Today an intuitive thought came to my mind. The Government of Kerala is holding a 50 Million Bumper Lottery Draw this 23rd. God told me to go to specific Lottery shop and buy my ticket. God’s voice is a small voice that speaks inside the heart. I have petitioned God to help me win the first prize of 5 Crore Rupees.

There are days when I am struggling with words. But always I make it a point to write something. Writing is a therapeutic tool for me. The essence of writing is a soul. The beauty of writing lies in the heart. The passion of words lies in the mind. What to write about?

Letter to a Lost Lover
Dearest Darling Precious Honey, I am writing this letter after a period of 25 years. The reason for you to reject me is rather flippant. I visited your island when you came to my hometown. Yes, you told me to cancel the ticket and come and see you. But I did not take heed to your wishes and upset you and you discarded me. Darling, you live in my heart and making me bleed with agony. You are my first love and you always be cherished in my heart. I am wondering why you rejected me for such a silly reason. I am told by someone that you died in an accident. I don’t know if it’s the truth or a fib. I have tried to search you on social media sites but I am having no luck. I remember with gratitude and passion how I held your sweet hands. I trembled with ecstasy. Kissing you was like flowers melting in my mouth. In college you were the most beautiful of all. I recall the song of Beatles which I sang for you. We have talked on various things and the wonder is that we had no conflicts. Our world views were matching. I deeply mourn about why you rejected me. You live like a song in my heart. You are the poetry of my soul. Your image haunts my imagination. Why did you fill me with sadness? I have loved you with my heart, soul and body. All my life I am living with you in angst. You were a beautiful companion to me. Why did you vanish away from me? What wrong have I done to you? When I think of you, I have tears in eyes. You mocked at my love. You leave me with a bleeding heart and a wounded soul. Why darling, did you so such a thing? How many I love youS you have whispered to me. I cared much for you. But towards the last you have evaded me. You did not even visit me when I was going back. You did not speak a kind word to me. I don’t even have a photo of yours so that I can remember you. Darling is it true that you are sleeping in the grave. If so my condolences and RIP to you.

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May 6th 2019

Morning decorated itself like a garland of flowers. The muses were chanting sweet music. I feel so awed and contented by the presence of the Holy Spirit.
I am still reading Paul’s Letter to the Corinthians. Paul talks of spiritual gifts given by God and they are:
Wise Counsel
Clear Understanding
Healing the Sick
Miraculous Acts
Proclamation
Speaking in Tongues
Distinguishing Spirit
Paul says that we are one body having many parts that are united. So is our body united in Christ.
Paul speaks about a Homily about love:
‘If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but have not love: I am a rusty creaking gate. If I preach God’s Word and all its mysteries in plain language and if I say to the mountain be moved and yet have not love, I am nothing. If I give everything to the poor and be burned as a martyr but I have not love, I am nothing’. To love God and others is the greatest Gift that God has bequeathed.
‘Love never gives up
Love cares for others more than the self.
Love doesn’t strut.
Love doesn’t have a swelled head.
Love doesn’t force itself on others.
Love doesn’t fly of the handle.
Love doesn’t revel when others grovel.
Love keeps no record of sins.
Love takes pleasure in knowing the truth.
Love puts up with anything.
Love always trusts God.
Love always looks for the best.
Love never looks back.
Love keeps going to the end.’

May 5th 2019

Morn came up like sweet music. The chirps of tinsel echoed in the sky. I thank Jehovah Jesus for blessing my life and making me contented.
I am reading Paul’s Letter to the Corinthians and I would like to share some thoughts with you.

Paul talks of gifts coming from God. Yes God rewards us spiritually and materially. We have to constant in Prayer asking God to gift us with his choice.
Then Paul talks of infighting in the Church of Corinth. Paul gently pleads with to be at peace with one another.

Again Paul says that he didn’t come to Corinth to make a large following but because he was obedient to God’s Word.

The Message of the cross cannot be understood intellectually but only spiritually.

For the Jews to believe in Christ—they want signs and miracles. For the Greeks, they want Philosophical wisdom. This acts as a stumbling block for accepting the message of Christ. What is needed is simple Child like Faith when we approach God’s Kingdom.

The mystery of God is spiritual wisdom and not the wisdom of the street. Embracing God’s wisdom guarantees us a place in heaven. Paul encourages the Christians in Corinth to grow in Christian Faith.
Paul gently chides with them about sexual promiscuity in the church. Yes, the scripture is very clear that sexuality is a gift of God and should be practiced within the bounds of married life.

Paul cautions them to settle disputes amongst themselves and not take matters to court.

Paul recommends that if you have the desire to have sex, go get married. Sexuality is a gift of God and should be practiced in married life.
Paul again explains that God does not lie in Idols. There is only one God—the messiah Christ.

Paul again speaks of eating meat sacrificed before idols. He admits that it is possible with caution. He says that if a person who has just come to Christ sees a believer eating the food given to idols, he may loose his faith.

May 3rd 2019

I am reading Paul’s Letters to the Romans and I would like to share with you some thoughts about it.

Paul is speaking about grace and the divinity of Christ. What is Grace Theology? It’s the abundant love and merciful blessings poured on us. God knows the desires of our heart and he is a God who will answer our prayers. The son of God was crucified and on third day he resurrected giving us a hope of eternal life with him. In this world we experience trials, tribulations and persecution but this is temporary compared to eternity in heaven.

God says through Paul: ‘I will make nobodies somebody’.

Paul talks of the Jewish Race of many who had not accepted Christ. He tells that Abraham’s descendant Isaac was born out of a divine command. Isaac is God’s promised Destiny for the Jewish nation. From Jacob God made a nation Israel. Paul laments at the failure of the Jews to choose the Messiah.

The fruit of salvation is trusting and being obedient to God. God’s relationship with us is one of faith, grace, mercy and love.

We must all know that a great revival is taking place in Israel. Many Jews are coming to Christ and they are called Messianic Jews.

Paul again prophecies that the hard hardheartedness of Israel is temporary. Yes we are witnessing a miracle happening in Israel.

‘Everything comes from him and everything happens through him. Take your everyday life as offering to God’.

May 2nd 2019

In the morning, the sky was lit with colors. Fruits of nature flew in the sky. I am so happy to have Jehovah Jesus as my savor.

I have started reading Paul’s Letter to the Romans. I would like describe some thoughts said in it.

When Paul was preaching the Gospel to the Gentiles the Jews raised foul and fury that the gentiles are not circumcised. Then Paul replied that more important than circumcision is to have trust, faith and obedience in God.

Paul also speaks about the Genealogy of Christ. We all know that Christ descended from David’s Clan. We have to have knowledge about the Historical Christ and also have faith in the divine Christ.

Paul in the Letter to the Romans speaks of Abraham and he being obedient to the Will of God. God has Abraham to sacrifice his son Isaiah and he did it very obediently. We have to be rooted in the New Covenant set by Jesus. We must lead a life of purity and being without blemish.

Paul also talks of Baptism. There are two types of Baptism. One is spiritual Baptism being given by God and the other water Baptism. Water Baptism has three fold functions and they are Before Being Baptized we are like the crucified Christ and while being baptized we like the buried Christ and once baptism is over we are like the resurrected Christ.
Paul also talks the sin of Adam. Adam and his wife were expelled from the Garden because they ate fruit from the forbidden tree. God therefore had to send his son Jesus so that all mankind will be saved.

April 29th 2019

Morning rose up a s painter’s heart. Little blossoms chanted in the sky. Sun melodramatized into an epiphany. I bow down to God Jehovah Jesus and thank him for all his blessings.

 
I am still reading the Gospel of Acts. Mostly it’s about the work of proselytization done by the Disciples of Christ and Paul. They encounter all sorts of problems like being accused of being liars and slanderers of faith, casting our demons by sorcery. But they endure their spread of theology very bravely. I am wondering if the present day evangelists have the same zeal as their predecessor.I no longer have a confused worldview. My worldview is being deeply rooted in Christ. I am able to separate worldly Philosophers from Christ’s words.

 

Thanks to God Jehovah Jesus, I was able to complete a treatise on the methods of Criticism, they being Philosophical Etymology, Psychological Pharmacology, Cultural anatomy and Ontological Nebula. For Philosophical Etymology I have used deconstruction, structuralism, Feminism and Marxism for analysis. For psychological pharmacology I have used Freud, Lacan and Jung. Cultural anatomy deals with value, function and meanings in culture. For Ontological Nebula, I have used two concepts: Constructive Ontology (my own) and destructive ontology.

 

I was reading the biography of Umberto Eco the famous novelist who wrote: The Name of the Rose. I was surprised when the narrative said he had a 30000 volume library. Compared to that I have a dwarf library of 100 odd books. Collecting books is my weakness and a mental fetish.

 

The biggest thing in my life after coming to Christ, I don’t have an anxiety anymore. I have a past history of reading astrology columns. Reading astrology fills the mind with fear and anxiety. The good things they predict never happen. One day I was doing a reading and the column said: there is imprisonment. The whole day passed on with dread and at the end of the day nothing of that sort happened. The Bible (Scripture) is very firm on Astrology, Tarot and the Occult. It says that our ‘God is a Jealous God’ and those dabbling in it will have the curse of God not to one generation but till the fourth and the fifth generation.

 

What I am writing is my own encounter with Pagan Idols and deities and its all truth. I don’t want its cursed to sprinkle on anyone. I want all to be enriched with God’s blessing. Give the Devil an inch and he will take a mile.

April 28th 2019

Morning mushroomed with a canopy of colors—little hymns made divine music—all is beautiful with me. I thank God Jehovah Jesus for his abundant blessings.

It is wonderful to think of how words acquire new cultural meanings with spread of the internet and globalization. A good example of that will be viral, selfie and web.

I am pondering on the art of writing. What could it be? Writing is primarily a narrative. In olden days dissemination was oral. Then there started the writing of texts. There are two types of writing. They are readable writing and interpretative writing.

Readable writing can also be called primary writing. It can be factual or literary. Readable writing is found in discourses like Philosophy, Math and Sciences are examples. Readable writing being literary can be a good story either in speech or in writing. Novels, Poetry, Drama, Films all belong to this genre.

Interpretative writing can be cultural, literary and philosophical. Let me use an example. Let me take the thoughts of structural and post-structural Philosophers.
Let me use an example to understand interpretative reading. Saussure is a famous structural Philosopher who introduced the Sign in Language. All language is made up of Signs. A sign is made up of the signifier and the Signified. A signifier is a visual tangible thing. A signified is an idea. For example if I say dove is peace, dove is the signifier and peace the signified. Then Roland Barthes who used the structuralist Sign to analyze fashions and culture. Philosophically speaking the sign was put into deconstruction by the philosopher Derrida. Deconstruction examines how signs privilege and marginalize people in texts. From Derrida I have developed a new idea of Philosophy called Binary Fusion. Binary Fusion is a text that does not marginalize or privilege anyone.