I did not take sleeping pills. I dreamed of sleeping in my deceased grand-dad’s house…There was a guest in the house and it happened to be my significant other a Filipino woman. She was in the guest room and it had door connected to my room. We made passionate love all through the night. Then I dreamed on being a Writer …but the dream broke up into fragments. Then while I was travelling, I was asking the way and all the people were giving me wrong directions….
I have insomnia and when I do not take sleeping pills, I go into a dream state. Yesterday, the whole night I was dreaming. I am able to recount only one of my dreams. I was driving a minivan to buy cigarettes and I crossed a bridge and after that I was driving on and on through a lush paddy field. I woke up without reaching the destination. I can’t find a single dream book which carries multiple interpretations. What does the dream signify? Do the bridge and the lush green paddy field signify new positive beginnings? Is a Freudian interpretation of anxiety in the unconscious a right one or is the dream a detour from the realities of life? Freud calls it as condensation and displacement. I don’t trust my unconscious with Freud. Am I authenticating my life in the existential Sartre’s- way?
Borges the father of magic realism fell on the table asleep holding the pen. In the dream he saw a feminine beast; her body was a claw and her face was a fang; she was holding a scroll that was folded like a phallus. In the dream he was told that the sign of the structuralists, the one consisting of the signifier and the signified was going to be made esoteric and arcane. What are the signifier and the signified in the sign? For example if Rose is Passion, rose is physical and tangible and belongs to the sensate realm and passion is an idea and belongs to the intelligible realm. The feminine beast having the body of claw and the face of a fang unrolled the folded phallus. On it was written: ‘I am making the signifier go blind and the signified go deaf’. She grinned at him viciously and smiled toothless and said: hockusposckuslexicadabra. Puzzled Borges woke up and made a disappointed fart.