August 5th 2019
Today was a day of feeling of being doped and dragged down. I had to take the children to play badminton as the PE of our school was sick. It was an interschool contest. When we went register the students, lo to our surprise, we were asked to present their birth certificates. I had a tough time phoning the school and asking the principal there to email it to the host school. The PE of our school did not coach the children at all and to make matters worse the children were not aware of the rules. Though we lost, we lost by a narrow margin. It was a boring day for me. I could not smoke also I am became at ease after dropping the children at their homes.
There is a strange custom here in Kerala. Many Hindus hang idols of their Gods along that of Jesus and Mary and send decorative lights all over the idol. Is Jesus and Mary an idol? Isn’t the idolatry inherent in Catholicism a diabolic hocus-pocus? I would call this as an idiom meaning Confused. I am confused means accepting Hindu and Christian beliefs at the same time. The shop keeper is confused.
What to writer now? I have written all of a day’s happening. Writing is a fluidic meaning of recollecting and mentally positing experiences. It’s good to recall thoughts? Thoughts are symptoms of a pathological narcissism. The muse dies in painful agony with every word. The muse then resurrects with a new thoughts. Sad to say, that the muse is very sporadic. The desire to write is found deep within. It stems from a flow of eclectic thought. Words bounce like bouncer. It’s a wonder as to how words get recalled from stored memory. Writing is the knack for the uncanny. Writing is a staggering effort in streams of consciousness. There is no fixed time for writing. Writing is always in the process of renewal. Writing is like the four seasons: summer, spring, autumn and winter. Writing is an enigmatic artifact. A writer succumbs to the poetry of prose. Writing is a stoic ornament. Writing is battle for the writer and catharsis for the reader. I would love to adorn the gift of writing. Writing is a indwelling of catharsis and angst. Writing is the soul of nature. Writing is the poetry of hope. Writing nourished the soul to a new well of becoming. The reasons to write are many. Writing is a fugitive disguising words in veils of poetry. Writing anchors the body to an epiphany of ecstasy. Writing is tool of the optimist to forecast a bright future. Writing is an awakening of hope. Sometimes writing is a black rose of death. The fiery zeal of the writer is autonomous to celestial designs. Writing is the passion of poetry. Writing is the breath of living in literature. Writing catapults the soul to dizzy raptures with the divine chorus of heavenly rhythms.
August 1st 2019
Today was a slow paced day without nothing much happening in my life. I am a happy go lucky person not worrying much about what will happen tomorrow. I live my life trusting God Jehovah Jesus. He knows all my needs and he will bless me and give me his favor.
I took a few classes and really speaking I am fed up of teaching. I want to spend my future days writing and traveling to places. I am very fond of South East Asia and the Scandinavian Countries. I hope I can a significant sum of money by playing the lottery. I want to indulge all my senses into a muse of feeling. The passions of my soul are deep and they form an artistic tapestry. Poems live in my heart and are melodious to the soul. I always question myself as to why I should write. Writing is a Sun and Moon of beauty. Writing is a culture of art. Writing is the music of poetry. Birds fly on the page and their pen are wings in flight. I am a Christian liberal a one possessed by the Joy of finding Christ and trying so hard to abide in his will. God Jehovah Jesus will weather me through all the storms of life. Writing is the unveiling of the unconscious. Writing is a trope, a painting of words. I have decided to find the meaning of life as a creative writer. I am always asking the question: what of writing? What is writing? Writing is an art of the fugue in expression. Writing is the melody of birds in flight. Writing is a peaceful poem. The meaning of life is unraveled through writing. As a meaning: writing purposive. An artist is a purposist. Writing has a value and that is called Valuableization. My writing is a new writing of existential philosophy. Ontology shifts to a purposeality. We are valuablizaed individuals with God’s karma to live on this planet earth. Writing is also anecdotal or ironic presentation of life in irony. Through writing the meaning of the self in uncovered. Writing is poetic prose. Beauty is uncovered as a poem that moves gently across the sky. Through writing, the meaning of life is understood. Writing is a release of libidinal joys. Writing is the experience of the angst and using the faith of God to transcend it. Writing is a poem of art. Writing serenades as angels in flight. Writing blossoms a garden. Writing is Mozart’s Hallelujah. Writing is a musical garden where poets play their harps. Writing is pure passion of bequeathing sentiments of feeling. Writing is the emotion of the heart. Writing is a memoir of being captive. Writing is the joy of art in expression. Writing finds the self of meaning. Writing is a caring self. Writing is a loving self. Writing transcends the self into an art of meaning.
You are in control of my ship—Lord Jehovah Jesus: Steer it with grace, favor, and mercy
God’s arms are welcome for those who love him.
Lord I surrender myself to your will and purpose in my life.
When you think—use God for possibilities according to his divine will.
Don’t despair or be in anguish—it needs very little time for God to raise you up.
God hears the prayers of the humble and the meek.
Lord: turn my tears of grief into tears of joy.
A small and gentle voice that speaks to you is the voice of God.
God’s time is a beautiful mystery—it is the most perfect time.
Embrace God with your heart and he will give you more than you ask for.
Let your days be filled with blessing and your nights be a joy of gentle sleep.
Allow God’s way in your life.
Be thankful to God for the mercies given.
The depth that God has is deeper than the oceans and taller than the mountains.
God’s love is a divine precious gem.
God has a beautiful heart.
Clothes of heaven have the garment of mercy.
God is a son that walks with me.
From the Bible
I am fond of these verses: they are: ‘My Yoke is wholesome and my burden light. A bruised reed he will not break: a smoldering wick he will not quench. I will cause you to rest’.
Idioms from the Bible
Daughter of Herodias
King Herod committed adultery with Herodias his brother’s wife and John the Baptist condemned it. Herodias daughter danced before the king and got him drunk and he in drunken stupor said whatever she wants will be granted. She asked for the head of John the Baptist to be beheaded. Herodias daughter as an idiom means a wicked, treacherous and immoral woman, woman with no principles. There are many Herodias daughters in today’s society.
Lord of the Sabbath
When Jesus the Rabbi was questioned by the Pharisees on why he was not observing the Sabbath: he replied to them: I am the Lord of the Sabbath. Lord of the Sabbath as an idiom means sovereignty of the LORD. Yes, Jesus is the Lord of the Sabbath.
Five Loaves and Two Fish
Jesus fed 5000 with 5 loaves and 2 fish. As an idiom 5 loaves and 2 fish is a blessing of prosperity gin by God. Oh God Jehovah Jesus: Let me days be filled with 5 loaves and two fish.
Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit
Jesus said: all sins will be forgiven except blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is a despicable and condemnable act.
David eating bread from the Temple
When Jesus was questioned by the Sadducees why he was not observing the Sabbath, he said, even king David ate the offering (bread) kept for priests from the Temple. David Eating from the Temple as an idiom means being sagacious. We should be David Eating from the Temple.
The people of Nineveh were wicked but when Jonah preached to them: they repented. As an idiom Nineveh means repentance. My relationship with Christ is one of Nineveh.
July 18, 2019
Morning queued itself as an epic poem. The muses serenaded with poetic whim. I feel so grateful to God—Jehovah for giving me a blessed life.
While reading the gospel: I came across the incident where the disciples were on a boat and then the tempests raged. Then they cried out to Jesus: Master Save us. Then Jesus walked on water and calmed the storm. He said to them: you are of little faith. Little Faith as an idiom means having not having the faith and innocent trust in God. Even though I am a believer, sometimes I am of little faith.
I am very fond of the Romantic Movement. Wordsworth defines it as the spontaneous overflow of feeling. It means implanting a rich plethora into animate and inanimate things. I am forced to live a life of romantic ecstasy. Yes in romanticism brooks murmur, rivers flow in speech, the mountain breathes a passion, thunder roars in anger, poets float in the sky, waves frolic in passion, winds kiss in noisy breath, lovers pour passion on the bed and so on.
I am also fascinated by Ezra Pound’s imagism. Pound has defined Imagism as an ‘intellectual and emotional complex in an instant of time’. Poems transform themselves into profound images. Let’s look at some examples. Morning wore a doctor’s stethoscope. He lay on the bed covered with maggots. Gray christened into a loud shout. Poems wore images of dusk. Passions raged from the ring of fire. Romance sung a duet in the sky. His anger was as cloudy as the sky. Beautiful poems blossomed in the garden. The landscape lay trembling with an echo. Stones breathe in whispers. The lovers kissed like a musical garden. The tomb was covered with desolate grass. Beauty, you are the charm of the soul. Poetry is a rich tapestry of meaning. Ecstasy is a ripe fruit. Dogs do omen howls. Peace is a dove released from the earth. The seed is meaning of life and the fruit the rich harvest of life. The spring mimics a metaphor. Irony is an empty wallet. Sounds bark, and colors grimace. I am not impressed with your metallic phrases. The mountains are chanting fire.
Prayer in One’s Life
While reading the Gospels, I encountered many a time Jesus taking time to pray. After addressing the multitudes, he used to go to the mountain to pray. He also taught the disciples to pray. How do we pray? First of all we have to give all honor, glory and worship to God. With prayer God opens his wings of favor, compassion and grace. With prayer we receive the gifts of God. Doors are which are closed open. Prayer is a window to healing. Prayer is a veil for protections. Prayer is the abundant receiving of God’s grace. Prayer also gives comfort to those who are coping loss of a loved one. Prayer is the gift of the Holy Spirit
Bible for Those who are coping with Loss
Mourning the death of a loved one is not an easy thing. Often we tend to lose hope. How do we cope with loss? Let me quote the scripture: Psalms 34:18 ‘The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit’. Revelation 21:4 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more mourning, no more crying, no more pain for the old order of things has passed away.’ We can’t understand death by our own will. We need the grace of God to feel his compassion. When we pray for the grace of God, he will ease our souls and fill with compassion. For the broken hearted: let me use the example of Job who had to face ghastly trials and temptations even though he was faithful to God. When Job was tempted by the Devil he quotes in pain: JOB 6:2 ‘If only my anguish could be weighed and all my misery be placed on scales’. Though Job was suffering the greatest beauty of Job was he did not complain. I can only say that though prayer you can accept the grace and compassion of God. There is also the future hope of meeting your loved one in heaven.