I am suffering from chronic insomnia and bipolar disorder. Finally I have decided to take stopping psychotic medication and sleeping pills. Read the Bible and prayed to Christ, took some hot Guava tea and honey and that did the trick. Slept peacefully, was able to wake fresh early morning. Early morning while writing this article, I listen to Greek Orthodox Church chant, the Byzantine one. It is really soul soothing. Did not read any Philosophy for a day. I do not know why I waver from atheism to belief. Is it my bipolarity? Even John Paul Sartre the greatest existential atheist philosopher whom I have great regard while on his death bed went through an acute reconciliation. While reading the Bible to disprove it, one becomes more enlightened to its profound meaning. While reading the Parable of the Sower I encountered a metanoia. Let’s see what the parable of the sower says. Let’s examine what this parable says. Christ talks of three types of seed falling in different palaces. The first seed fell on open ground and the birds came and ate it up. This could mean that the seed had no foundation to grow. The second seed fell upon gravel and then it failed to sprout from there. The third seed grew among weeds and when seed grew the weeds chocked it out. The fourth type of seed grew on good ground and yielded good fruit. The first example is an illustration of wavering of faith. When the base of faith is shaken by trials and storms the fruit of the word becomes ejected from the consciousness of our being. I strongly do not believe that there is a nothingness in consciousness. The second example is one of temptation and the removal of purity and divinity. The third example shows a dissolute and reprobate mind. The fourth example shows adherence and obedience and faith in the living word of God imparted through his Son Christ. In theory it is easy but in practice it is difficult. Is a spiritual meaning higher than a linguistic and philosophical one? I am genuine seeker for truth but I am not perfect. Parables reveal rich spiritual insight. I am touched and my heart is moved to tears of repentance. I am in the state of fear and trembling: that experienced by Kierkegaard the theologian and Christian existential philosopher.