I was unable to sleep. Had a dream of copulating with my wife for a very long time. Yes the dream was enjoyable as I was able to give my wife many orgasms. Its exam time here and I have started marking English scripts. It’s sheer existential boredom as the scripts were littered with grammatical, punctuation and spelling errors. I corrected a few but grew bored by the process and the rest I just put red-lines underneath. I wonder how I can impart the mastery of my language to kids. The new generation kids are prone to selfies, LOL’s and U’s. But when it comes to plain writing of English they end up being disastrous monsters.


I am thinking of Ahriman, the demon in Zoroastrian religion and Rudolf Steiner’s depiction of him. I have developed a soft corner in my heart for him.


It is the beginning of Onam festival and women have started wearing (SETTU) Sarees, sarees white with gold borders.  They look so ravishing in it. While correcting, reading or writing, I tend to smoke a lot of cigarettes. My lover has invited me to her apartment on Sunday and I am very excited. Saw black cat ambling down the school ground. I thought maybe its good luck.


 . I carry the 1$ Bill in my purse as talisman. The Masonic inscription of the All Seeing Eye and the Unfinished Pyramid is awesome in symbolic meaning. I am in need of some money about three lakh rupees to pay my employees before the school closes for Onam. May be with Ahriman’s help, I can win a lottery tomorrow. Morning was boring but afternoon soared my spirits with my lover’s message.

Myth of the Sisyphus

Camus popularized the myth of Sisyphus in his book and it means living the drudgery of existence. In the myth Sisyphus is forced to roll a boulder uphill to find out that it rolls down again. The Myth of the Sisyphus as an idiom means living an ironic life.


As a writer: I live the life of Sisyphus.

For Camus life offered no meaning and it was for him a Sisyphus.

Forms of Catharsis

It is the Greek Philosopher Aristotle who coined the term Catharsis. For him it meant a purging of emotions, cleansing of the soul while one watches a play, especially a tragic one. Here I would like to redefine catharsis as an ‘aesthetic affect’ when one encounters or participates in various forms of aesthetic activity. Every encounter with an aesthetic form results in a Catharsis.
What is it to be in Catharsis when one is composing or listening to music? While listening to Bach’s symphony one encounters a musical-catharsis. The sheer musicality of tone, melody, rhythm strikes a fusion and makes our ears tuned to a magic realism. What about Catharsis while listening to rock music? Rock music induces cacophonic catharsis. As the Philosopher Nietzsche has said: ‘art begins with the fusion of Dionysian and Apollonian elements. What about Catharsis for the musician composing music? A musician will be in a State of productive and integrative Catharsis. A musician would have to be creative to induce melody, beat and rhythm into a musical culture.
What is the type of Catharsis when one encounters a painting or sculpture? I would like to state that we come into being of a pictorial catharsis. Let me utilize some examples to illustrate this phenomenon. Let’s analyze the post modern sculpture of Rodin’s Thinker. The first cathartic mode was fascination. The secondary effect was I was asking the question why Rodin sculpt the thinker in such a stiff motion. Is thinker a rebel who wants to defy God and challenge the intellect? The thinker is a metonymy for Death of God as espoused by Nietzsche. When we look at a painting or sculpture we enter into the process of many cathartic modes of deriving meaning. Next I would like to appropriate Marcel Duchamp’s ‘inverted urinal’. Marcel Duchamp celebrated anti-art and it was a form of protest belonging to the art form Dada. While viewing Marcel Duchamp’s inverted urinal one undergoes the Catharsis of disgust. Catharsis can also be a negative mode of thinking, a negation. What is the type of catharsis when one views Munch’s Scream? The scream portrays an individual in angst. The inner angst of an individual becomes individuated when one encounters the scream.
What is the type of catharsis when one enters into the stream of writing? I would like to call it a writerly catharsis. Writing is born out of the pleasure or angst of the ID. In writing catharsis can be confessional, celebratory, critical, analytical, and descriptive. Writing is born from the body of passion and the mind in obsession. Writing invokes the Dionysian modes of rhythm and beat and the Apollonian modes of melody and harmony. There’s a jazz of poetry and the music of art in the writer’s pen.
What is the type of catharsis one encounters in the process of reading? The process of reading produces a phenomenological catharsis. For example while reading Camus ‘The Myth of the Sisyphus’, I encountered the catharsis of anguish. I could identify with the heroic individual Sisyphus who is forced by the Gods to roll a boulder uphill to find to his tragic fate that it rolls down again. There is no meaning or ultimate goal in life’s trajectory. One encounters life as a form of philosophical suicide. Camus advocates that despite life being a Sisyphus, one must overcome suicide and try to authenticate life’s existence. What is the type of catharsis one encounters Plato’s allegory of the cave? In a cave there people and they are separated by a wall and on the other side they can see light. Plato wanted to convey the idea that there is an ideal world beyond this illusory world of existence. Looking at Plato’s allegory in a postmodern context one can say the purpose of life is to transcend death and that could only be possible by creating aesthetic objects. Art can overcome the meaning of death. Again let’s analyze Sartre’s consciousness of being for itself. Being for itself has the state of the ego which projects consciousness towards an object. Sartre calls the object transcendental. Being attains realization of meaning as the art of becoming. This I would like to call as transcendental catharsis.

Metaphysical Attributes

Metaphysics in the past was transcendental and attributed to something related to God. Ontology and Phenomenology have brought it down and integrated into the concept of being Here I would like to focus on certain metaphysical themes like Wisdom, Epistemology, love, hatred, envy and covetousness.
What do mean by Wisdom? Socrates: said ‘know thy self’. The question is how the self can be known? After the psychology of Lacan we understand that there is no stable self. The human has to tight-rope-walk on or maneuver between the ID, EGO and the Super-ego. Wisdom in religious terms is connoted to God the Supreme Being. It said in the Bible: ‘ask of me and I shall give you wisdom’. But that is a symbolic kind of vagueness. Is Wisdom Sapiential? Is Wisdom the factual rendering of thoughts into ideas? What ultimate meaning can we connote with Wisdom? Is Wisdom related to language as Signs, Metaphors and Metonymies? Is the attainment of Salvation in Christianity and Nirvana in Buddhism and Hinduism the hallmark of Wisdom? Wisdom could be celebration of ideas.
How do we incorporate Epistemology or the theory of Knowledge into a Metaphysical realm? One has to ponder about the ideas stated by Knowledge. For example, from psycho analysis we know that dreams are the product of unsatisfied desires. We also know the existence of various states of the mind like the ID, EGO and Super Ego. Structural thought has introduced the concept of the Sign with that of the Signifier and the Signified. The post-structuralists created the Binary division of language. From facts, ideas are born these become the various knowledge systems of epistemology.
What is love? Christian philosophy has distinguished between three facets of love and they are Agape, Eros and Philos. Here Agape refers to the love of God which is unconditional and characterized by Grace. Though we are undeserving, we are privileged to receive Agape. Eros is sexual love and based on the body’s primeval urges. But the problem with Eros is that it is short lived. Once orgasm is reached Eros dies in a grave. There is also another kind of love that is eleemosynary love. Here love is meant by being charitable and helping others. Mother Teresa is an exemplary example of this love. The desire to love is metaphysical and transcendental.
Next I would like to focus on Hatred. Hatred though not a popular theme is also metaphysical. Hatred is a natural emotion. World religions are against hating someone. But in existential philosophy hatred is an attribute of consciousness. Hatred is a process of overcoming angst and entering into the stream of negation. Hatred is not a disease but a therapy for mental healing. One can overcome meaning’s suicide. To hate is to be in the philosophy of existential nihilism.
Envy though no doubt an undesirable trait can be a positive one in the Philosophy of consciousness. Why does envy arise? Envy is the product of a Capitalist Consumerist Society. Such a society gives rise to inequality. Philosophy has to contemplate whether an ideal Utopia can be created. Today we live in a world of Dystopia and envy is a functional behavioral mode of expressing that desires lie unsaturated.
Same is the case with covetousness. Today we are living in a world moral and ethical relativism. Covetousness is born out the greed of the EGO. We are all covetous creatures of desire. If Democracy becomes socialist universally than there would be no covetousness. But we live in democracies of imperfections.